Show me you have changed. Show me you are different now. Please. Give me a reason to answer your texts. Give me a reason to see you again. Give me a reason to forgive you. Give me a reason to put my heart on the line again.
I need proof letting you back into my world would not be another one of my mistakes involving you. I cannot afford to have my heart broken by you another time. You already received more chances than anyone else would have gotten.
I want you in my world. I don’t want to turn you away from my doorstep. I don’t want to block you from social media. I don’t want to erase your number from my phone. I don’t want to move forward in life without you around to support me.
In a perfect world, you would still be here with me. Except life is not perfect and you are not perfect.
Even though it kills me to keep away from you, I am not an idiot. I am not going to invite you back into my world due to guilt or our history. I am not going to listen to my heart over my head because my head is right this time.
If you want another chance, you need to earn it. You need to show me you are not going to turn around and hurt me again.
Give me a reason to forgive you. For the fights. For the disappointments. For the passive aggression and the anger. If you can form an apology strong enough to erase what you put me through in the past, then please, do it. It would make everything easier for the both of us.
I hope you realize how hard living without you is for me too. I don’t want to cut you out of my world. I want you to give me a reason to forgive you. I want you to give me a reason to believe things are going to be different this time around, because I cannot risk a repeat of what happened between us the first time.
Unfortunately, I don’t know what you can do to make things right between us. I don’t know if there is anything you can do at this point. I think you’ve missed your chance. I think you’ve screwed up one too many times.
Even though I miss you, even though there are nights when tears stream down my cheeks and texting you is the only thing on my mind, I cannot give you free rein to hurt me. I cannot put myself through the same pain again. I cannot let you get away with what you have done to me.
I keep dreaming of a magical universe where you find the right words to make up for your mistakes, but deep down, I know that is never going to happen. Nothing can change what you’ve done.
I need to forget about you. I need to accept my future does not involve you.