In 2019, I Will Finally Feel Alive

In 2019, I Will Finally Feel Alive

In 2019, I will not beat around the bush. I will not hide behind I’m fines. I will not shelter my truth. I am going to be more straightforward about my feelings. I am going to admit to crushes, reveal lifelong secrets, and speak out about injustices. I am going to raise my voice higher than a whisper because keeping quiet has not done me any good.

Remaining inside the safety of my comfort zone has not done me any good, either. I cannot continue to lock myself in a bubble. I cannot let my routine become a repetitive machine.

In 2019, I am going to break out of my rut. I am going to say yes to adventure. I am going to face fears with a war cry. I am going to give myself permission to act spontaneous for the first time in a long time. I am not going to give my what-ifs more credit than they deserve. I am not going to hold myself back because the meddling little voice in the back of my head is warning me to play it safe. I am going to walk along the edge of my discomfort. I am going to experience new things. I am going to become something new.

In 2019, I am going to push myself beyond the borders of my wildest dreams. I am going to give myself permission to believe in possibilities. I am going to train myself to think of positives before negatives. I am going to place more attention onto my achievements than my failures. I am not going to shoot for the starlight to impress others. I am going to be my own motivation. I am going to become a success story for myself. 

In 2019, I am going to transform myself into an unrecognizable figure. I am going to keep my soft heart but ditch my insecurities, my baggage, my self-hatred and self-doubt. I am going to make a vow to better myself. I am going to practice forgiveness and acceptance. I am going to break apart my worst habits. I am going to keep my gaze zoomed onto the road in front of me, not the gravel littered behind me.

In 2019, I am going to keep my expectations high. I am going to pursue my passions instead of hovering in the same place. I am going to chase excitement instead of letting it escape me. I am not going to let another year cycle by without at least attempting to reach my own personal milestones. I am not going to be filled with the same set of regrets 365 days from now. I am going to make the most of 2019. I am going to make sure to treat every single day as a stepping stone toward my dream future.

In 2019, I am going to say goodbye to the numbness. I am going to walk away from the mundane. I am finally going to take a chance on myself. I am finally going to feel alive. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

Holly is the author of Severe(d): A Creepy Poetry Collection.

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