I’m Trying To Stay Positive — But The Truth Is That Life Sucks

It sucks that you can open your whole heart up to someone and then have them throw your trust right back in your face. It sucks that love doesn’t always last, no matter how strongly you felt it at first.

It sucks that the family members you were close to since the day you were born can leave your life without hesitation. It sucks that the people you assumed would be around forever can become strangers in the blink of an eye.

It sucks that the friends who swore they would never forget you can move away, get distracted, and never speak to you again. It sucks that the memories you made together mean nothing to them — at least not enough to convince them to keep in touch with you.

It sucks that the people you love more than anything in the world are the first to die. It sucks that they’re taken away from this earth before they have a chance to do everything that they wanted to do.

It sucks that you can work your ass off for something that you really want and never see it pay off. It sucks that you can follow your dreams for decades and still struggle to reach them.

It sucks that you have to spend so much of your time going to school, going to work, and taking care of chores that you never have enough time to take that vacation you’ve been dying to go on. It sucks that you rarely have time to do anything fun.

It sucks that your brain can decide that you’re depressed or anxious, even though all you want is to be happy. It sucks that you can’t control the way that your own mind reacts to your environment.

It sucks that you can do everything right and still get dealt a horrible hand in life. It sucks that the universe doesn’t appreciate how hard you’ve been trying and punishes you when it should be rewarding you.

It sucks that good people have horrible things happen to them. It sucks that this society is filled with so much pain and suffering, which seems like it’s never going to go away.

It sucks that you can feel like your entire world is crashing down around you while everyone else keeps living their life. It sucks that no one else truly understands what you’ve been going through.

But I’m trying to stay positive. I’m trying to remember how lucky I am in the grand scheme of things and how it’s important to keep fighting. I’m trying to remember that it could be worse and that I have a lot to be thankful for.

I’m trying to remember how amazing life really is, because I feel like an asshole whining about the bad stuff.

But sometimes, I need a second or two to complain. Sometimes, I need the chance to vent to a friend. Because sometimes, life can seriously suck.