I don’t know why we haven’t kissed yet, because it’s obvious that there’s something between us. The sexual tension is off the charts, the sexual frustration is eating me alive.
Every time I get close to you, I feel my heart lose its timing. I feel my lungs lose their air.
All I can think about when you walk into a room is how I want to be wrapped in your arms. I look at your lips and think about how badly I want them pressed up against mine. And when I look at your hands, I imagine them curled around my waist or intertwined with my own.
I can’t glance over at you without thinking about all of the possibilities. About where our future could take us if we actually took the leap and let our emotions out.
Whenever we’re alone together, I wonder if it’s finally going to happen. If we’re finally going to end the charade of just being friends and act on our feelings.
Because I just know that you feel the same way that I do.
We’ve never admitted how much we like each other, we’ve never said the actual words, but we always hint at our feelings. You tell me how beautiful I look and I tease you about how cute you look. We trade compliments, share flirtations.
I don’t know why we haven’t kissed yet, because it’s all I’ve been dying to do. Because I daydream about it during every dull moment of my day. Because I can’t count the number of times I’ve fantasized about the way your lips might taste.
I’m tempted to break the distance between us every time you look at me, every time you smile, every time you laugh.
I don’t know why we haven’t kissed yet, because we’ve had plenty of chances for it to happen. There have been nights where we stayed up late talking, just the two of us, all alone with no one else around.
We could have used those opportunities to our advantage. You could have pushed my hair back, pulled me close, and brushed your lips against mine.
Of course, I could have done the same. I could have made the first move instead of waiting for you to be the brave one. Instead of wasting all of my time wondering why we’re still playing pretend and avoiding taking action.
I don’t know why we haven’t kissed yet — and every reason I can come up with worries me.
Is it because you’re scared of what will happen if we take the next step? Is it because you like flirting with me, but aren’t ready for an actual relationship? Is it because I’ve been reading you all wrong and you’re not actually attracted to me at all?
I don’t know why we haven’t kissed yet — and I don’t know if we ever will — but I still have hope that it’s going to happen. That I haven’t been seeing the signs wrong and you really do like me as much as I like you.