When you don’t think you’re good enough, you push people away. You assume that every relationship is going to end in heartbreak, that you’re going to find a way to mess it all up.
You think that the other person will either get bored of you or annoyed by you and will step out of your life as soon as you get attached.
You can’t imagine anyone staying for long, because you don’t think you have anything worth giving. You think too little of yourself.
And when you don’t think you’re good enough, you question the motive of every kind word and every smile aimed in your direction. You wonder why someone is treating you so well when they could easily walk past you without a single glance.
Do they want something from you? Are they trying to use you? Are they trying to make fun of you? Do they only like you, because they think that you’re something you’re not?
You don’t like to get close to people, because people have a habit of disappointing you. They get your hopes up, make you feel like they’re becoming a permanent part of your life, and then the texts stop coming in and the excuses start popping up.
They fade out of your life as quickly as they entered it and there’s nothing you can do to stop it.
That’s why you never even let it start. You keep yourself isolated, telling yourself that it’s better to be alone, it’s better to keep your heart in a cage where it has no chance of getting bruised and beaten.
When you don’t think you’re good enough, you don’t give yourself the opportunity to flourish. Instead of seeing where a relationship takes you, you stubbornly stay single. Instead of letting someone into your life, you slam the door and ignore the knocks.
You never give yourself the chance to get rejected — but that means you aren’t giving yourself the chance to be accepted either. You aren’t giving yourself the opportunity to be loved, to be held, to be happy.
When you don’t think you’re good enough, you disrespect other people’s opinions. If they say that you’re beautiful, you’ll say that they’re lying. If they say that you’re fun to spend time with, you’ll say that they think that now but will eventually change their mind.
You never believe the nice words that are given to you. You only believe the nasty insults that your own head has been repeating over and over throughout the day.
You think that you know better than everyone else. That everyone that has a positive opinion of you just doesn’t know you well enough.
When you don’t think you’re good enough, you are doing yourself a disservice. You are tricking yourself into believing an ugly, self-destructive lie.
But the beautiful truth is that you’re valuable. You’re worthwhile. And anyone would be lucky to have you in their life.
You might feel like you aren’t good enough, but you are. You are.