Please Delete My Number

Nishe

Because I’m going to miss you. Because you’re going to pop into my mind on a rainy Sunday evening when Bon Iver is humming in the background and I’ve poured myself a tall glass of wine and a whiff of your old cologne catches me suddenly off guard – lingering in the apartment like an unwanted house guest who was never invited to stay.

Please delete my number. Because I’m going to want to call you when I apply for that job you always said that I should go for, or cut my hair in that way I never dared to or get that dog we always talked about getting and don’t know who to text its eager picture to. I’m going to want to call you when the Bills win and when the last snow melts and when each long, wine-saturated night draws to a close and I wish that it were still you I was on my way home to.

Please delete my number – because I didn’t want to end up here. Because the word “Maybe” is the slowest form of torture that you possibly could have settled on, dragging out a hope that died long ago despite your stark refusal to bury it. Because maybe doesn’t mean, “This may happen.”

It means, “I am too fearful to go but not strong enough to stay.”

It means, “I’ll miss you but not enough to be with you.”

It means, “I love you but not quite enough to stick around and fight.”

Please delete my number – because I don’t want to delete you. Because I want you with a certainty that you will perhaps never possess. Because I do not have to think twice about whether I would like to answer your text messages or pick up your phone calls. Because I’m sure. Because I do not love people halfway and that’s where you and I differ. I don’t want the occasional phone call. I don’t want to play your tired-out game.

Please delete my number because I’m not going to settle for your maybes. I want concrete. I want definite. I want people who call when they say they will and show up when they plan to. I don’t want to spend my life waiting for and wasted on a person who can only love halfway. I do not want your texts, late at night that say,

“I miss you” or

“I’m sorry” or

“I just need a little bit more time.”

Please delete my number – because I’m deleting yours. And you can find someone new to text your maybes to. TC mark

This is me letting you go

If there’s one thing we all need to stop doing, it’s waiting around for someone else to show up and change our lives. Just be the person you’ve been waiting for.

At the end of the day, you have two choices in love – one is to accept someone just as they are and the other is to walk away.

We owe it to ourselves to live the greatest life that we’re capable of living, even if that means that we have to be alone for a very long time.

“Everyone could use a book like this at some point in their life.” – Heather

Let go now

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    I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to post today until I came across this article. Just my luck that I came across this article; maybe. Sort of. Since my relationship ended, I have come across numerous articles that hit several spots close to ‘home’ but none of those articles hit home 100%. Then I came across this article today and I don’t think I have read anything that resonated more. Deleting numbers was something we ‘disagreed’ on – he didn’t want to and even though I didn’t want to, I knew I needed to. It wasn’t just a want, it was a desperate need because of all this article says. It’s a tough thing cutting someone out of your life, not just because you know you will miss them for days, weeks and months, but because you’re cutting off someone who was such a big part of you. A big part of your every day and almost every thought. So instead of writing about my ‘regular’ day, I thought I’d share this instead.

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    “Please delete my number – because I don’t want to delete you. Because I want you with a certainty that you will perhaps never possess. Because I do not have to think twice about whether I would like to answer your text messages or pick up your phone calls. Because I’m sure. Because I do not love people halfway and that’s where you and I differ. I don’t want the occasional phone call. I don’t want to play your tired-out game.

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    My exact sentiment..

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