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I Know You Will Leave Me One Day

The door is always open. Every day I expect you to walk out that door and never come back. Each morning I wake up in bed next to you, wondering if, by nighttime, I’ll have to sleep alone without the comfort of your embrace.

I listen to the words “I love you,” holding on to them if ever each time will be the last. I wanna capture every detail of your face. I want them ingrained in my memory because someday, those will be all I have.

I place my hand on hard lines of your jaw, look deep into the eyes that captured my soul, and lay a kiss on your lips, laced with a goodbye just in case.

I know we aren’t forever and I’ve accepted that as a fact. I am easily replaceable by somebody better who deserves you more. You’re too good to be true and I’m just bad for you. You will get that perfect life and a future where all your dreams come true, even if I won’t be in the picture.

I’m alright. This isn’t paranoia, but being at peace with inevitability. You don’t need to worry at all because I’m nothing but grateful for you. You were the best thing that happened to me. A piece of you will always remain within me, and I’ll be ready when it’s time to let you go.

For now, I’m making the most of these moments we have together. While I can put that smile on your face, I’ll take every chance I can. You still look at me like I’m your most favorite person in the world, and I will always wonder how I could have been so lucky to get a chance to love and be loved by you.

You were on the way toward a whole life ahead of you, but somehow, you came and joined me on this little detour. You’ve still got a bit of time to live the rest of your life, so for now, come dance with me and relish in the temporary. Let’s see as much as we can until you don’t want to see me anymore. Let’s be happy together until you’re happier apart.

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