Some days I wake up feeling on top of the world. I wake up, take a deep breath and am just completely overwhelmed in happiness. I smile like an idiot to myself because of crazy support and love I feel from the people in my life. I feel like there is no way I can come crashing down from the high I’m on.
I am thankful for my life, every single good and bad day because it’s lead me to where I am and for that I’ll always be thankful.
But not every day is like that.
I can promise you I don’t wake up feeling like I just created a new personal best for myself every day with arms wide open ready to take on the world, not even close.
Some mornings I wake up and I’m miserable, I dread the fact of getting out of bed. I don’t want to do anything because my motivation is at an all time low. I stare at my computer screen un-inspired, I start feeling sorry for myself and have to give myself motivating pep talks to attempt to accomplish anything.
But that still isn’t a bad day.
The bad days are when I don’t even like being around myself. The days where I’m in such a bad mood that I know how horrible I’m being, but I can’t be bothered to do anything to get myself out of it. It’s the days where the only thing I can do is sleep and hope that I wake up in a better mood. It’s the days where I struggle with everything. I struggle with being alone, I struggle with being myself, I struggle with my body image, and everything turns into a negative constant struggle.
It’s a bad day when I don’t feel appreciative for the people, opportunities and things in my life. That’s when it becomes a problem.
The bad days are the days I wish I could completely erase, the days where I’d rather disappear than be around. The days where not even going for a drive, or a run, or eating my favorite foods can help get me out of the funk I’m in because everything just feels overwhelmingly awful. It feels like I’m a turtle on my back, no matter how hard I try to flip myself back over it’s nearly impossible.
I try to remind myself it’s only a bad day. I tell myself over and over that it will be better tomorrow. I breathe.
But sometimes I wake up and it doesn’t get better, sometimes I feel like I’m in my own personal hell where everything just goes wrong for a whole week and it never feels like it’s going to end. But it does. It always does.
I believe that you make your own luck; if you see the good in the world and stay positive the world will reward you with good. Likewise, if you’re always looking for the negative in things that is all you will see because that is all you are looking for. That is all you are drawn to.
The most important thing to remember on a bad day is that it could always be worse and that you are extremely lucky. It is also important to remember that you are allowed to feel your pain, you are allowed to feel sorry for yourself and you are allowed to get upset, you just can’t live in your self-pity.
You can acknowledge and feel the bad days, but you can’t let the bad days overpower you. You need to move on, you need to feel it and know you don’t want to feel that way anymore and start feeling grateful.
Start embracing your life and acknowledging the little things that you always overlooked before.
When I have a bad day I remind myself of everything that I have that I should be undoubtedly thankful for, even if it doesn’t work, it’s worth a shot.
I remind myself that I should be thankful for my vision; the ability to see and see everything in bright colors is amazing.
I remind myself that I’m so lucky to hear the sounds of my dog barking and splashing his water bowl around outside because even though it drive me mad on my bad days, I’m lucky to be able to hear him playing.
I remind myself that even when I open the fridge and see nothing in it that I want to eat that at least I can afford to buy groceries or order take out.
I remind myself that even though I might feel alone in this world that I’m not, I’m not even close. There are others who are going through the same thing I am and I have friends and family that I know I can always count on when times get tough.
Everyone has bad days, days where they feel defeated and like the world is against them, but the most important thing to remember is that bad days don’t last.
They only last if you let them defeat you. Don’t let the bad days defeat you and turn a bad day into a bad life, because it isn’t a bad life, it’s a great life. You’ve just got to be able to see that through the bad days.