18. loudandproudfag

I had a boyfriend, whose now an ex who I indirectly forced prematurely out of the closet to his dad.

Long story short, he never knew what exactly what he “was” but he did know he liked guys, that was obvious since we were dating. Well one time I came over to his house while no one was home and we spent time together and ended up fooling around and I accidentally gave him a hickey. Neither of us noticed and way after I had left to go home, his mom noticed.

She had already knew he liked guys but because of her fear/ lack of understanding, she didn’t really support it, and kind of just knocked it to the back of her head and they never spoke of it. Until she saw the hickey.
She didn’t know about him dating me until the hickey, even then, she had to play detective momma and put 2 and 2 together. Well when she did, she said “You’re going to have to tell your father now.”

My ex was no where near ready to tell him, but he had to. He even got this moment of throat lock where he couldn’t speak, and when he did work it out of him. His dad simply cried and walked away. To this day, he refuses to accept or acknowledge it. He even threatened his newest boyfriend when he caught them kissing.

It’s my fault his own dad won’t look at him because I got careless. My ex refuses to admit it was my fault because he’s too nice but I know it is.

I don’t know how to get past this feeling.