Now, I’m not sure how I exactly feel about this but–ever since I could fully understand what sex is (say fifth grade?) I’ve been having some pretty absurd fantasies. I get so turned on by the idea of being used, either by one men to up to gang-bang quantity. I imagine or fantasize about ‘casting couch’ types of things happening to me, older men groping me in subways, elevators, having their way with me. Recently I took up to chat roulette, I like the twisted notion that perverts get off on my exhibitionism. Another way of ‘using’ me I guess. I don’t know where this all started and I don’t know if this could or should be fixed.