This Is Me Giving Up On The Possibility of You

I wish I could say that I “used” to think your eyes were nice and that I “used” to love your smile, but the truth is that you are still the most beautiful man I have ever seen.

As much as I wish I could have been yours, this is me finally throwing in the towel. This is me coming to terms with the fact that you could never love me in the way I’ve loved you for so long. This is me giving up on the possibility of there ever being a “you and me.”

There were too many times that I felt like you could maybe, one day, love me back and that day hasn’t come. I can’t keep stringing my own heart along on a ride that I see no end to. This is why I’m giving up because loving you is endless nights of thinking about what your lips taste like and what your laugh at midnight, watching a movie in the living room, sounds like.

I will never know those things.

As much as I enjoy hoping, I have wasted too much time wishing instead of living my life and finding someone who dreams about me in the way I’ve dreamt of you since the day we met.

I need someone who has the ability to love me forever.

Know that if it were up to my heart, I would never let you go, but I know it’s the right thing to do. The memory of you is forever burned into me, but it’s time I make room for something promising, something bigger than unrequited love.

Loving you has made every ounce of my body incredibly happy and incredibly lonely at the same time and I don’t even know how that’s possible.

This is how I know it’s time to say goodbye to the possibility of you even though I know it won’t be easy.

This is me saying goodbye to all the hopes and dreams and looking forward to everything the world has to offer me.