Please don’t come back into my life again, if all you are going to do is say goodbye. Please don’t come back into my life again, if all you are going to do is turn your back on me. And please, don’t come back into my life, just to leave. Again.

I’ve already said goodbye to you. I’ve already cried a river for you. I’ve wept an ocean. I’ve had to learn to walk again. I’ve had to re-learn how to breathe correctly.

You knocked the wind out of me when you left.

It felt like you dropped me from a thousand feet. So, you see, I had to re-learn how to live. Which is why you can’t come back if you’re going to walk away again. You can’t grant me the privilege of false hope. You can’t hold me in your arms and leave the next week. You can’t just do what you want. You can’t do that to me again.

You can’t expect me to run away from the tide. You can’t expect me to not smile at the storm. Because you will always be my favorite feeling in the world. You will always be my favorite raindrop on my skin, my favorite gust of wind that blows the hair off my face. My favorite chill in the hot summer heat.

You can’t expect me to ever say no to you. You can’t expect me to be strong. I’m a fool for you. A gigantic fool, with you etched into my heart. A gigantic fool, still in love.

So, if you come back, don’t leave.

If you come back, promise to stay in my life. Promise a future for us, like you did years ago. If you come back, don’t let go of my hand again.

I’ve already cried the atlantic for you. Don’t make me cry another sea. Don’t make me weather the storm by myself. Don’t leave me to pick up all the pieces you left by myself. Don’t leave your scent in everything I touch. Don’t leave your taste in everything I eat. Don’t leave your clothing drenched on my skin.

I don’t think I’ll be able to survive the loss again. I don’t think I can re-learn how to live for the second time.

So, if you come back, come back because you want to. Come back because you want to stay. Come back, because you want to say a thousand more hello’s, instead of goodbyes. Come back, because you want to say a thousand more I love you’s, instead of I’m sorry’s.