This Is What I Mean When I Say, ‘I Love You.’

Saying I love you with fiery passion is never an attempt at being romantic. It’s a stubborn pursuit of making you happy because you make me crazy happy. Life is not easy but having you makes it bearable and worth it. Raw and unguarded, I love you. It is so much more than what it means because “I love you” means you mean more to me than 3 words, 8 letters and 1 sentence said everyday over and over again.

I love you means I choose to love you, all of you. You don’t have to hide your weirdness, cracks, imperfections that make you who you are. I won’t tolerate your annoying habits and quirky flaws because I like them, I will honor them. I won’t accept any less than who you are because I believe in all that you can be and I appreciate all that you are and everything you do.

Your past is not mine to judge. Your past helped you become the amazing person that you are. Every time you look back, please remember that all that had happened lead you to me. Please remember that I love you now. Everything you tell me, anything we share will remain between the two of us. Your secrets are safe with me.

I love you means I won’t be your other half. I’m perfectly fine on my own and you’re constantly growing towards perfection. I choose to be with you not because I have to or I need you. I’m here because I want to share a part of my life with a love that overflows and stretches far beyond the depths of my feelings, and creeps its way into your soul. In you I find comfort in the most uncomfortable, insanity in the boring and beauty in black and white. You can be insanely wild with bad memory, strange taste and extreme mood swings but you will always be perfect for me.

I love you means I will not pursue you. I will pursue God first because I don’t want to be the one for you. I want to be the best for you. I believe only He can provide us with what we need to grow and make any love last.

I love you means your thoughts, your feelings, your doubts and fears, and anything that matters to you matters to me. If you feel sad, I will let you be sad but never alone. I want you to freely feel and express how you feel, no matter how little or silly. You can be yourself. Stay wild and live life like crazy adventure.

And if you need space for whatever reason, you can have all that needed space. In every aspect of your life, I will support and encourage your dreams and call you out on your bullshit. When you get bored, we’ll start a new adventure.

I love you means I want to learn more about you. I will remember because each time I look at you and I just know. I’m home. I find peace and insanity intertwined. This love is divinely rooted in patience and thrives in a kind of friendship that will endure change. Each time you smile, I know I’m doing something right. I want you to have the freedom to do whatever makes you happy and whatever makes you who you are. If in case you forget, I would gladly remind you.

I love you means you deserve the truth. When the right words or the right moment to tell you or to show you becomes bleak and when the depth of my feelings becomes too deep to be expressed, I will find a way. Difficult isn’t impossible. Whatever truth you choose to believe or whatever you choose to do, I will respect your decision and honor you. Because no matter what, the truth is I love you beyond reason, beyond words, beyond truth and a little more than I should.

I love you means I’m letting you go. Because that is the kind of love you deserve, the kind that won’t hold you down, the kind that is never held back. No conditions. No doubt. Just love. Overflowing heaven sent love. I find heaven on earth with you. You make everything more beautiful and being with you is a grand adventure because you are a blessing to the world. I thank God for your presence in my life.

Now that you know what I mean, let me tell you.

I love you.

Let me show you because you deserve more than 3 words, 8 letters and 1 sentence said everyday over and over again. You deserve love at its best even at your worst. No boundaries, just love.

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