What I Mean When I Say I Don’t Want To Lose You

“I don’t want to lose you.” It’s such a vague statement with so much meaning behind it. It seems like it’s just words. Those six words embody everything, though. They embody how I feel in the moment, what I feel when I look at you. They mean that I want you to be in my life. I’ve had people come and go. I’ve had a lot of people go. It doesn’t stop hurting. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results.

I guess you could call me insane. I don’t think it’s insane, though. I think it’s reality. People leave. They come in for a reason, and they leave for a reason. I feel like you came into my life for a reason, and you were meant to stay in it. You were meant to be here. I don’t want to lose you—I want to see you striving, I want to see you happy. I want to see you. I just want to see you go through your life.

I want to stay in your life, and I want you to stay in mine. I don’t want either of us to go through another loss. I don’t want to feel the heavy weight on my chest when I’m lying in bed each night and you cross my mind. I don’t want you to be another teardrop rolling down my cheek when I think of the relationships and friendships I’ve seen walk out the door.

I don’t want to lose the laughter when we talk to each other. I don’t want you to go through another day thinking you aren’t good enough. I don’t want to go through another day feeling as though I wasn’t enough for you. You make me feel like a better person. You’ve given me the drive to be a better person.

I don’t want to lose you, because you’re so irrefutably you. You’ve got something that continues to draw me in, no matter what. I want to be in your life, and I’m willing to fight for you, to fight for you to be something in my world. I’ve let people walk out the door before, but I’m not willing for it to be you. I want you to stay with me. I want you to be here, and I want to be there.

We’ve built something special. It may not be romantic, but we’ve built something, and it’s worth keeping. You drive me insane some days. You can make me flip out like no one else, you can make me roll my eyes, but I don’t want to lose that.

When I say I don’t want to lose you, it means that I don’t want to lose the effort I’ve put into you and the effort you’ve put into me. I don’t want to lose everything we’ve built as a team. There’s something special about you that keeps you near me. I know that you’re important, you’re close to my heart, and you have become something irreplaceable to me. You’ve become someone that I don’t think I want to go without.

If it came down to it, we could. But I don’t WANT to. I don’t want to lose what’s here. We’ve built something that’s powerful; it’s worthwhile. We’re something important and we’re worth building on. You’ve built something with me. When I say I don’t want to lose you, it doesn’t mean I can’t live without you. It means that I’ve chosen you, and I know that it’s worth having you in my life. I can live without you, but the truth is, I just don’t want to. I don’t want to lose you.