I don’t want to be with someone who makes me question myself. Asking myself why he didn’t text, why he’s not following up, was it something I said or was it something I did? I don’t want to be with someone who’s waiting for me to do one wrong thing so he can run away. Someone who makes me feel like I can’t be myself because I’ll push him away.
I don’t want to be with someone who is still playing the field and enjoying the attention. I don’t want to feel like I’m in a competition or in a race to win his affection and love. I want someone who is ready to see only one and settle down. I want someone who doesn’t make me feel like I’ll never be good enough or pretty enough or smart enough. I want someone who sees through all of that, someone who is over the superficial dating.
I don’t want to be with someone who makes me feel even more insecure about my insecurities. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t make me feel safe in my own skin. I don’t want to feel like I have to be perfect all the time. I just want someone to embrace my mess sometimes, to remind me that it’s okay to be me, that even if I don’t make sense, I’m still accepted. I’m still loved.
I don’t want someone to love me for a little while then get bored. I don’t want someone to make me feel like I’m hard to love or I push people away. I want someone to remind me how people can stay when they care about you, how those who want you, will never leave and how those who understand you forgive you for your silly mistakes or the things you say when you’re angry.
I don’t want someone who doesn’t appreciate me and makes me feel like it’s my problem. I don’t want someone who tells me he’s not ready then starts dating someone else. I don’t want someone who lies to me, someone who never means what he says or someone who doesn’t see me the way I see him.
I don’t want to be treated like another fling, another waste of time, another girl they like but not enough to be with. I don’t want to question love anymore. I don’t want to forget what love is. I don’t want to fall for someone who doesn’t know how to love.
I want to be with someone who still believes in the one. In forever love. Someone who wants a home. Someone who wants a best friend and a lover all in one. Someone who doesn’t think that being with me means his life is over – it means it’s just starting.