I’m learning to let things go. To stop fighting so hard for things that aren’t happening, to stop trying so hard to win everything and everyone. To stop conforming to a society that’s never content, that always expects more of you, that expects you to be everything all at once, a society that looks at you based on what ‘goals’ you have accomplished.
I’m slowly learning to take it easy. To stop being so hard on myself. To stop trying to check every box or every item on my bucket list. I’m learning to put all my lists away. To slowly have faith in my life, that I’m right where I’m supposed to be and right where I need to be. I’m slowly learning not to run away every time. I’m slowly learning to accept myself; with all my uncertainties, with all my insecurities, with all the chaos that’s happening inside my mind.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to get attached to things as long as you know that they might not last forever. As long as you’re ready to let them go when they’re no longer yours. As long as you’re ready to release them instead of possess them.
I’m slowly learning that I don’t have to get everything I want, that I won’t always be the best person or do the right thing, that I may sometimes be the reason why I pushed something away from me and I’m learning to be okay with it.
I’m slowly learning that the essence of life is change and letting go is part of it. I’m slowly learning that letting go is not a bad thing. That letting go may be a blessing in disguise.
I’m slowly learning that God wants me to let go too. He wants to understand that no matter how hard I try, it’s going to be his call at the end of the day. That no matter how badly I want to control things, I can’t. That no matter how hard I work for something, it won’t always be mine if he doesn’t want it to be. I’m learning that it’s always going to be his word above mine and I’m learning to love him for it.
I’m slowly learning that sometimes you have to let go of everything you’ve known, everything you’ve believed and everything you’ve ever loved so you can truly live. I’m slowly learning that letting go is not the same as losing hope. And this is giving me all the hope I need.