It’s hard to hold on to ‘maybes’ but it’s harder to let go of all the possibilities that come with it. The texts that make you smile, the calls that make you stay up all night and the happiness that makes you feel alive.
It’s hard to hold on to ‘someday’ but it’s harder to let go of the dream that day holds. The day you’ve been waiting all your life for, the day when your dreams become reality and the day that sounds impossible but somehow you still believe in it.
It’s hard to hold on to broken promises but it’s harder not to hear them at all. It’s harder to live with no promises because even broken promises hold some truth and broken promises can be fixed, words can be changed and they can find their way back to you.
It’s hard to hold on to the possibility of us but it’s harder to completely forget it. It’s hard to forget the one thing you want to remember and it’s harder to forget it when it’s everything you truly want.
It’s hard to hold on to the fantasy in my head but it’s harder to be realistic. It’s harder not to think of a happy ending, it’s heartbreaking to think that this is the end, that this is all it will ever be.
It’s hard to hold on to my emotions but it’s harder to use my logic when it comes to you. It’s harder to make sense of an already irrational situation and it’s hard to think that my mind doesn’t want you or that my heart doesn’t desire you.
It’s hard to hold on to someone who might break my heart but it’s harder to let go of someone who can also heal it.
Because heartbreak is inevitable and I’d rather have my broken by you than anyone else.
Because even if it’s just a possibility, even if it’s just a thought, even if it’s just a fantasy, it still has the power to pull me through another day.
It has the power to give me something to look forward to.
It’s hard to hold on to something that may never happen but it’s harder to let it go when you know that if it happens, it will change your life.
It’s hard to let go of the most beautiful thing your eyes have ever seen.