You’re still the first person I want to talk to when I hear bad news, you’re still the only one I want to cry to.
You’re still the only one who can make me feel better when things go wrong; I don’t know if it’s the sound of your voice or the words you say so articulately or just the way you understand my silence when people struggle to understand my words.
You’re still the only one capable of making me smile when my tears are pouring down my face, you’re still the hand I want to hold when I can’t even feel mine.
Because it’s always the tough times that reveal to you who you need the most and it’s no surprise that I need you.
I need you to tell me that it’s going to be okay, and if it’s not then at least you’re with me.
I need you to quiet my mind so I can sleep at night because you can turn my nightmares into dreams.
And I admit that I can’t do this alone anymore.
I can, but today, I don’t want to.
I know you’ll tell me that I’m not alone because I have my friends, but I feel alone, I feel alone without you.
You’re still the only one I want to be alone with.
It’s ironic that sometimes we wait for things to go wrong so we can go right. It’s ironic that we have to come so close to losing people or losing ourselves to remember who we really don’t want to lose.
You’re still the one I’m afraid of losing.
And today, I surrender.
Today, I need you.
Today, I want to call you and tell you what I’m going through.
Today, I want you to listen to me.
Today, I want you to act like you care.
Because no matter who shows up at my door to comfort me, I’ll still knock on yours.
If you’re the reckless decision in times of sadness, I want to be irresponsible.
If you’re the mistake I make because I’m not thinking clearly, I want to be foolish.
If needing you is wrong, I don’t want to be right.