Nowadays when you really like someone the initial reaction is freaking out instead of being flattered.
I’m a woman and women are emotionally driven, sometimes our emotions can be too strong too soon and we can be a lot more forward than we have to be – but this is what makes us special and this is what makes us different. But just because I am open about my feelings doesn’t mean I am ready to jump on the marriage train.
When I say I like you, it means I want to spend more time with you to get to know you. I want to know your routine, what makes you happy and what makes you angry, your likes and dislikes, how you treat others, how you treat your family and how you treat me.
When I say I like you, it means I want to see if we can make each other smile. If we can comfort each other when we are down, if we can make each other laugh over the silliest things, if we can just sit in our PJ’s all day and still have the time of our lives. I want to see if being together is effortless and exciting and feels like home at the end of a crazy day.
When I say I like you, it means I want to see if I can trust you. I want to see if I can be myself around you, if I can trust you not to judge me when I tell you about my past and not to laugh at me when I tell you about my future. I want to know that you can protect my secrets and protect my scars; that you can stay beside me when I’m at my lowest and lift me higher when I’m on top of the world. I want to know that you will not run away at the first strike of temptation and that you will try to trust me the same way too.
I will only want to marry you when I’ve seen all versions of you and learned to love them. When I’ve seen the dark sides and learned to accept them. When we’ve been together for months or years and my heart still skips a beat when I see you. When we have told each other everything that we were afraid to say and we no longer have doubts about each other. When we know within our hearts that we would rather be alone than without each other. When our souls know that this connection is timeless. When we feel something bigger than what we can understand or explain.
I will only want to marry you when we have proved our love and loyalty to each other time and time again. When we have gotten through bad fights and solved our issues. When we have learned to love each other over and over again – especially when we were being unlovable. When we made it through long distance, when we faced hard times together, when we shared beautiful memories together. When we can look back and say we can absolutely do this all over again.
When I say I want to marry you it will be because I truly love you wholeheartedly. When I say I like you, it means I want to try to love you – but I’m not there yet and it’s not going to happen overnight.