I lose myself in books.
It always starts with the first few pages. I let the words soak into my brain; I let my mind wander with the characters, picturing their clothes, their smiles, the way they twirl their hair or laugh quietly when they’re nervous, or how their heart starts to beat a little faster when they run into the person they like.
I get so invested.
I want to know how each person feels. I imagine the scenario as it plays out and I hear the dialogue in my head. I see the rooms where they live, the houses they grew up in, or the parks where they played as children. Every scene just opens in my mind and it’s as if I’ve jumped into the pages, as if I’ve become a character myself, knowing, inside and out each word, each sentence, each event, each turn and twist of this beautiful tale.
That’s how I want to know you.
I want to open you, to pore over your pages. I want to read each word of your past and imprint it in my memory.
I want to know where you’ve been. I want to know where you hope to wander. I want to know all the little things that make you, you—the way you bite your thumbnail when you’re thinking deeply or how you have to wear socks when you’re sleeping or how you always sleep on the left side of the bed.
I get lost in books. And I want to get lost in you.
I want to know your thoughts. I want to know your fears. I want to know the ways you’re timid and hesitant, loud and bold, tender and soft.
I want to open your pages and commit you to memory, each word, each letter so significant and beautiful. I want to know your story, to get lost in it. I want you to be my favorite book, the one I can read over and over again and each time it only gets better.
I want to know you. I want to know how you feel, how you react. I want to know what’s coming, a surprise with every page turn but a plot line I can understand. A plot line that feels familiar.
I want to read you like a book, each page leading me deeper and deeper into your heart. I want to trust you. I want you to trust me. I want fall into your pages like a character, feel your story so intertwined with my own.
I like books because they take me away from the world, because they’re freeing, because they’re an escape, because I learn and grow and lose myself with each page turn. And that’s how I want to be with you.
I want to find my solace in your story. I want our stories to blend together. I want to be your protagonist, fighting and loving you and standing right by your side.
I want to read you like a book.
One that is too good to ever put back on the shelf.