I’m Sorry I Wasn’t There For You (But I’m Here Now, For Good)

It’s strange, isn’t it?
How we can sit in this crowded coffee shop,
talking about what has changed in our lives,
the people that have come and go,
the jobs we have left and we have acquired,
the humans we have loved and we have lost,
as if there was no time missing in between.

And all I can think about when you are speaking is,
My, I have missed so much.

You tell me about all the dates you have been on,
the struggles you’ve had at work,
your desire to find your passion
but the challenge behind paying bills.

And I deserted you, in your time of need,
because of my own selfish acts.

Time has changed us so much,
we are grown, mature
and my acts of selfishness
prevented me from protecting you.

All I can say is I’m sorry.
I wasn’t there for you breakups,
your makeups,
your heartbreaks,
the tears,
the fears,
the sleepless nights.
And I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you,
but you have made me realize in this moment,
that I was always thinking about you,
in the back of my mind,
wondering if you were okay,
if you would be strong enough
to make it through
all of the challenges you face.

But I should have known,
you are so strong, you can conquer anything

And I am so lucky to have you in my life again,
to teach me independence, strength,
and to always follow what I desire most in life.

I would travel miles and miles and miles to be there for you,
and I think,
even with all this time lost between us,
we have always been there for each other,
and I’m so happy to by your side again.