This time last year, I didn’t know who I would be this year. I didn’t know what or how things would turn out and I was basically lost. I kept looking for a way to survive, to hold myself on the ground, to keep fighting. I was kind of desperate to find out who I really wanted to be.
Last year, I let go of a lot of things. I let go of the person who I thought was the one for me just because I was comfortable. I let go of the things I thought were for me but were only holding me down and making my shine less bright. I let go of all the negative aspects in my life and made myself wait for the right ones.
I realized how busy I was fixing the crown that was never on my head in the first place. It was always at the hands of those I needed approval from.
Here I am now. I can’t say stable, but I’m no longer hanging at the edge of a cliff. I can’t say this is permanent, because I believe things can still improve. I can’t say I’m lucky because I worked very hard to get here.
All I can say is that I’m happier.
A man who I never in a million years thought I deserved talks about me with stars in his eyes. He look at me every time and sees the whole universe right in front of him. He never told me that, but I really hope that you know how it feels to be looked at that way.
I’m now happy where I stand. I keep learning and growing without ever thinking that I’m just throwing my life away. I’m not just here because it’s safe, I’m here because it’s challenging me.
I may still not have it all, but I have enough to make me happy. Everyone around me is happy, and I couldn’t ask for anything more.
Happier.
Do not strive to be safe or secured or comfortable. Strive to be happier.
Strive to be the best version of yourself, even if you have to let go of a lot of things. Strive to make the people you love happy, even if you disappoint them from time to time. Strive to achieve what challenges you for the purpose of growing.
Strive, not to survive, but because you want to be happy and contented in life.
Just stop comparing your success to others’. Quit staying on the safe side. Stop racing your life away to be above everybody else. The only person you need to be better than is yourself.
The only person who deserves your attention is you.
The only person who deserves your heart and soul is you.
The only person you need to waste your time on is you.
I’m sorry if you have to leave people or things behind, but if they no longer help you grow into the person you should be, then you are making the right choice.