Just Because I Left, Doesn’t Mean I Didn’t Love You

via Unsplash - Sergey Zolkin
via Unsplash – Sergey Zolkin

It isn’t easy trying to find the words that could convince people when they ask me why I left. Every single person closest to me has noticed how great you were for me. That was exactly the problem. You were such a gentleman on your own. You had the kindest heart, you cared way too much for me. I was too lucky to have you. It wasn’t until I realized just the kind of person you were that made me see how much more you deserved. You see, I’m a laid-back, free-spirited, independent girl and I care way too much about myself to start worrying about someone else. You gave me so much… way too much and I knew deep inside that I was never going to be able to give you even half of the love you gave me, so I left.

 I left because I could only give you a small piece of my heart when you deserve the whole. You deserve a lady who respects herself enough to be able to accept a man like you into her life and I left because I simply wasnt even close to being one. I left because I’m not willing to change myself to be what you deserve to have. 

The other day, I saw you walk your parents into a building with an umbrella. You looked so cool under the rain, with your black bomber jacket and your side-swept hair. All of a sudden, I remembered why I had fallen in love with you in the first place.

I wanted to keep you all for myself but your charm, your love, your time, and your effort belong to someone who will be able to give you the same and, hopefully, more for as long as it will take.

I’m letting you go because I want you to spend your life with someone you’ll truly be happy with. I’m letting you go because I don’t want you to feel unappreciated anymore. I’m letting you go because I love you, but I want you to know it feels like to be loved wholly by someone who knows how to. 

From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for hurting you. I hope soon enough you’ll realize why I chose to do this. I wish nothing but to see you in the future with the biggest possible smile on your face. By then, Im sure I’ll be truly happy. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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