Don’t go back to him just because you’re lonely. I know the nights feel increasingly long and you’re running out of ways to keep yourself distracted. The empty side of the bed feels taunting, like it’s only purpose is to remind you of what used to be.
But going backwards just because the present is disappointing won’t lead to a happy future.
You haven’t felt wanted in a long time and it fills you with an empty kind of melancholy. You’re lonely and trying really hard not to be. You want someone to kiss your cheek, someone to text you, “Good morning” and be reminded someone is thinking about you.
It’s hard. It’s hard to make the lonely stop. So, you reach out to the last place. You try to recreate something that hasn’t existed in a long time.
Don’t go back to him just because it’s familiar.
Don’t go back to him just because it’s another body in the room.
Don’t go back to him because you think it’ll make you feel better.
Don’t go back to him if you don’t actually see a healthy, viable future together.
There was a reason things broke apart. There was a reason you pulled away. There was a reason you left him in the first place.
So don’t go back to him just because your heart is lonely.
It will only further complicate things. It will throw you into a space that’s even worse than loneliness. And someone will get hurt. Maybe both of you.
Don’t go back to him just because you’re scared to be alone.
Don’t go back to him unless everything in your heart says you should. If your gut is in agreement.
Otherwise, it’s a waste of time. It’s just loneliness taking control.