I do not regret our time together. I’ve had some of the best days of my life with you, but I have to let you go and accept the fact that you won’t be part of my future.
I would have fought for you. I would have given you my whole world and my whole heart. I would have waited until you were ready if you had given me something to wait for.
However, you have made it clear that you don’t want me in your life and I won’t be the one who will beg for your love and attention.
I gave you lot of chances, but now I’m at my limit and I don’t want to play your games anymore. I don’t want to keep trying to figure out what you mean or how you feel. I can’t keep getting stuck on you when I have my whole life to live.
I’m only sorry for the fact that you won’t find someone who will love you like I would have. But I sincerely hope you will be happy and I will pray for your well-being.
After all that happened though, I forgive you, because only then can my soul be at peace. Someday, I won’t feel anything for you anymore. I don’t mean I won’t love you anymore. I will always love you. There’s a special place in my heart for everyone I loved truly. I meant that someday I will be able to talk about you without the sting in my chest and a shortening of my breath.
Thank you for showing me what love is not. It’s not waiting for a call or a text that won’t come. It’s not giving him time when he won’t make time for you. It’s not watching him flirt with others in front of you. It’s not ignoring. It’s not sadness. It’s not disappointment.
Goodbye my almost lover. You were a lesson after all.