To the future person who I’m going to spend my life with this is how I’m going to love you.
I will not buy you a house in the hills but rather we will travel the world together. We will go to places we have never been and anywhere you want. I will pamper you with great adventures and new experiences. We will both lie in the field of dandelions and wish for a great life together. I will bring you to Grand Canyon and look at your favourite constellation. I will dance with you in tune to the Northern Lights in Iceland because it is incredibly romantic.
I will make hiking my favourite hobby so we can see the hidden beauty of the forests together. I’ll swim with you in the ocean even when I’m drowning with anxiety because I don’t know how to swim. We are going to be the gypsy royalty and be known as the lover of many places.
I will eat the weirdest and strangest food with you so you would enjoy our journey together. I am a foodie and I will become the foodiest person you will ever meet. I will not bring you to Paris just to see the Eifel Tower and be kissed at the top of it but I will bring you there to hunt our favourite books together. Books are more romantic than the most romantic place in the world. I will visit museums and art fairs with you just to see the work of your favourite artists. These artists have a place in your mind, heart, and soul, with that I want to know you more. I want to know how you appreciate the color palette they’ve used and how tortured your soul is too. I want to touch your soul with my brokenness and I want you to be engraved in my soul.
I will go with you in music festivals and see your favourite bands. With my awful symphony, I will sing along with you. I will listen to Kurt Cobain’s music and won’t judge you because I know he saved you when what was left with you was loneliness.
I will drink coffee with you and herbal tea when you feel like being healthy. I will plant you garden so you could see life grow. I will make sure to watch every tutorial so when you can’t get out of bed or you don’t feel grand enough, I will be there to take care of you and make you feel grand. I will watch sunsets with you even though I love sunrises more than when the sun goes.
I will stay inside and cuddle with you when it’s raining. I will memorize your eyes and lips. I will kiss your eyes to remove every tears of yesterday and kiss your lips to make you feel love.
I will read you poetry of Charles Bukowski and drown us in his loneliness. I will write you stories and make them the happiest.
I will run naked with you in the road and be mischievous. I will shout “Trolls in the dungeon” in a place full of quiet people so I can make you laugh.
I will binge watch all the seasons of How I Met Your Mother with you if that’s how I’m going to win your heart every day we are together. I will watch Courage: The Cowardly Dog with you just to remember your childhood.
I will make love with you until you’re satisfied. We will adopt chinchillas, dogs, cats, and pigs if that will make you joyous.
I won’t call you babe or baby but your name. I want your name to be the word before the sun rises and your name before I fall asleep at night. I want your name to be my favourite word. Every day, I will have a reason to live aside from myself. Myself is more than enough but with you, life is so much different.
I am not saying that I will become submissive but what I’m saying is that I love you and I want to make you feel love. It is how I love a person. But please listen, that’s how I want to be loved in return.