This Is How I Want To Fall In Love With You

This world tends to form numerous ideas of what love is and isn’t and I don’t want my definition of love to be what the world claims it is.

Because love isn’t feeling butterflies in your stomach all the time whenever you’re with them.

Love isn’t all about going on coffee dates and finding yourself laughing and smiling the entire time.

Love isn’t supposed to be this addiction to the adrenaline whenever you fight and makeup right after.

Love isn’t just picking someone up date after date and finding yourself thinking about them constantly.

Love specifically isn’t supposed to be dramatic and full of toxicity or never knowing where you stand in their life.

Love isn’t chasing after someone that clearly doesn’t want to be with you and lures you in this constant push and pull motion.

If I’m going to love you, it’s me trusting you with my entire heart, even if you’re probably going to break it.

I want to love you with so much courage even if I’m scared shitless that it won’t work out, because I put my faith in you and God knows that.

I want to love you with this brand new hope that you’re what’s good for my soul and you’re what I deserve.

I want to love you with minimum baggage from my past and the realization that I deserve a good guy after a toxic relationship in my past.

I want to love you with confidence, with the knowledge that not every person is going to make me feel like I’m an obligation to love, that not every guy is going to hurt me the way my past did.

I want to love you with God in our center, because I’m dating you with the intent of marriage and nothing else.

I want to love you with so much patience and kindness, knowing that I will always choose to be slow with anger even in the most heated of arguments.

I want to love you with nothing but a healthy and motivating kind of love, and not the kind that makes you feel like you’re never enough and drains the life out of you.

I won’t love you to the point where I make you my everything and I become so lost in you that I forget my worth altogether, because we both know a love like that is low-vibrational and toxic.

Love isn’t supposed to be this romanticized idea that you’re supposed to make someone your entire world — that’s control or infatuation or just you chasing this absurd idea of what you think love is supposed to be.

Love isn’t about finding someone to complete you, because you’re already whole to begin with.

Love is just about finding yourself drawn to this person and wanting them to be happy, and creating a healthy and stable relationship based on that attraction.

Love was never about our own selfish needs.

Love is not based on pure emotions, but love is a constant decision.

You choose to love someone, despite the nights where you feel so confused as to why he’s so distant when maybe he’s just tired from work.

You choose to love someone not only on the days you can’t stop staring at them when you realize how much God has blessed you with them, but also on the days where they break your heart out of misunderstandings and with their selfish actions.

You choose to love them when they break their promise when they say they’ll take you out for dinner on your anniversary but something comes up at work.

Love isn’t perfect, but the struggles are sometimes what make us love the other person more. How will we know love without imperfections and heartbreaks?

“Love should always be patient and kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others and it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” — 1 Corinthians 13:4-7