You have to be your own sunshine, darling. Always. You can’t ever depend on people because people tend to let you down, even your own best friend. Don’t ever let the weight of the world get to you because I know you’re much stronger than that. You can’t fall apart and go back to destroying yourself because unlike last time, you have no one else but your own self to save. When it’s 2 am and you’re crying and you’re screaming at the moon about how life is so unfair, who else is going to be there for you? When you’re screaming at the top of your lungs about how everything hurts so much that you just want to feel nothing, and you break down into tears, who else is going to be there for you? No one. Just you. It’s going to get better, I promise. I know promises are meant to be broken and no person should ever make a promise that they don’t intend to keep, but this is something I’m truly sure of. Everything is going to be okay. Not all days are filled with the wrath of hurricanes and what seems like an endless storm. It will get better, but you just have to get through this hard part. Someday, you’ll be living in an amazing apartment in a place you love, with a job that you’re passionate about, and you’ll be happy. You would be waking up to the love of your life, greeting you with good morning kisses and the sweet aroma of coffee and pancakes that he has cooked for you and everything will be perfect. You’ll look back to this day and say that you’re glad you held on for so long. But for the meanwhile, please hold on.