Cynthia Marie

You will regret deleting his number at first. It’s expected.

When you refuse to feel stagnant and unimportant by doing everything differently than how it’s been, you will find yourself again.

I am here for you. Always.

Of course while in the thick of my silence and stillness, drinking wine and playing songs. I think about what it would be like to have someone in my life. I’ve been alone for so long. I know myself so well.

I believed in it enough for the both of us. You and me and our own rules, living so unlike everyone else because our love was different.

Eventually someone real will sneak in and change everything. He’ll break all those rules. He’ll interrupt your anti-emotional self

Maybe I should feel guilty for being here. Maybe I should feel disgusted with myself for being “that” girl, for trying to have you when you’re somebody else’s lover now.

But I have no words for you. I’ve exhausted them. And no matter what I say or do not say, I will never be free from you.