When we first met, I didn’t think much about us. I thought we were just two people that happened to be in each other’s lives. I knew you were nice, but I never expected the impact you would have on me. It became instantaneous. Our connection became natural and I suddenly became more and more excited to see you throughout our days together.

In retrospect, I took too much pride in solving my problems by myself. When I got more comfortable with you, I started to realize that you could help me. And for the first time, I didn’t feel any guilt when I needed a hand or when I needed advice. I was so consumed by how people would negatively view me if I felt like I needed help or someone to talk to. I thought people would use that against me or would view me as inferior. You taught me that it takes courage to speak out and ask for help. You taught me that a great team and a great pair is worth more than a great individual.

The thing with me was that I was still young. I was still figuring out who I was and who I wanted to be. Things that made me uncomfortable would cause fear and anxiety. With you, all of that changed. It didn’t disappear with a snap of my fingers, but we were able to openly communicate and express ourselves without sensing hidden judgment from each other. That was so rare to me. Expressing raw emotions and opening up about the things that were hurting us was like releasing an anchor out of my heart.

Our time is up. This still saddens me. You were everything I wanted but never had the courage to ask for. You were the heat that defrosted my heart. I can’t be with you now, but I can carry you with me everywhere I go. I want another life with you. This time I hope we end up being together in the end.