You’re The Worst Thing That Ever Happened To Me, But I Still Can’t Let You Go

God & Man

You came into my life and completely flipped my world around. You made me feel things I didn’t know I was capable of feeling. You made me reach a comfort I never imagined reaching with another person. You made me loosen the chains around my heart and let you in, and I fell for you – what a fool I am. 

You took my heart when you had no intentions of staying. You had me fall for you with no intentions of being there. You just stayed until you got bored, until you wanted to move on, until you wanted someone new.

And you just left me there all alone, trying to collect the pieces you so easily broke.

You made me feel comfortable around you, and secure. You made me feel like the world was ours and I actually believed those words you said to me when we were wrapped up in each other. You made me feel alive when I haven’t felt that way in so long. You made a fool out of me for believing in you. I handed you my heart, along with my trust and you just smashed them without a second thought.

It never mattered to you, I never mattered to you, but you’re pretty good at faking it. I guess we’re both good at faking a few things.

I don’t get how you could be so selfish and careless, but maybe that’s just because you’re so good at covering up who you really are with your charming smile and your sense of humor. I got distracted by you, I let my guard down, I lost myself around you because you had that affect on me.

If only I knew then what I know now, but I didn’t. I fell blindly for you and the worst part is I don’t even hate you for it, I hate myself for falling for someone like you. I hate myself for trusting you, for believing you, for opening up to you because those are words I’ll never get back. I hate myself for thinking you’d stay, for thinking I could change you, for thinking you felt the same way about me that I felt about you.

I should have walked away, I shouldn’t have believed you when you first started stringing those pretty little words together that got me hooked. I should have walked away right then and there, but I didn’t because you captivated me.

You become everything I needed that I never knew I wanted.

You are the worst thing that ever happened to me and I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t stop thinking about the words you used to say, I can’t stop thinking about how you made me feel, I can’t stop thinking about how you just left. I keep wondering where we went wrong, where I went wrong but I know it’s nothing I did or didn’t do – it’s just who you are.

You’ll never stay, at least not for long because you get bored easily. You convince people you’re so into them and maybe you are, but then you move on just as fast as you fall and to you it doesn’t mean anything. It’s just another girl and another rush to you.

But stupid me, I feel for you and your charm. I got involved and you made me feel the same rushing sensation that made us so explosive. You had my heart because I fearlessly gave it to you, thinking everything would work out. But you proved me wrong.

You are the worst thing that ever happened to me but while I was with you, you made my world burn with passion, and I think that’s why I still haven’t let go completely. I think that’s why I’m still holding on because when I was with you I felt alive and that’s a feeling I haven’t stopped craving since you left. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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