“You deserve better,” I tell the girl to my right who is crying into my shoulder.
“He doesn’t know what he’s missing,” I tell the girl hugging me on the left.
Surrounded by tears and heartbreak from two of my friends feeling inadequate, feeling like they’re not good enough, wondering what’s wrong with them when they give everything to guys who just don’t appreciate them.
Nothing is wrong with them I repeat over and over again.
“Guys are dicks,” I say as I listen to both of their stories.
When you give all the love you have in your heart to someone you deserve to have that love reciprocated, you don’t deserve to keep giving and giving in order to make them love you and in order to try to get them to stay. You don’t deserve to feel like you’re not good enough when you’re far more than enough.
You should be with someone who knows what they have when they have you, someone who can look at you and appreciate you for who you are. Not someone who treats you like you’re disposable and only wants things when he wants them. You aren’t a side piece, you aren’t someone’s after thought, you aren’t there to cater to his needs.
You are so much more than that.
I’m so sick of hearing the heartbreak stories, I’m so over the stories of girls giving everything to a guy and him still not thinking it’s enough. I’m so done with it because to me it isn’t fair.
It isn’t fair that you can love someone so much and to them it still isn’t enough.
I want to find the words to make them feel better, I want them to understand that it’s not them, it’s nothing they did wrong, but I can’t because those words don’t heal. They don’t make a difference when you’re uncontrollably sobbing because you don’t understand how the person you love so deeply just can’t want you back the way you want him, especially when you’ve given everything up for him. Especially when you’ve changed your life plan and altered your goals to make him happy.
I tried to comfort them, I tried to tell them everything will be okay, but in the moment we were standing in the dark street wrapped around each other it didn’t feel okay, and it didn’t feel like it would get better anytime soon.
I could see the pain in their eyes are they both tried to be strong, as they continued to dry the tears only to have another one stroll down their faces the next second.
It breaks my heart to know there’s nothing I can do, nothing I can say to make them feel better because no matter what I say the only person they want is the person whom they love, but that person wasn’t there.
That person was out living their own life without a single thought to the damage he’s doing.
It’s sad, It’s so, so sad.
I don’t know what else to say other than I’m sorry. I’m sorry they have to go through this, I’m sorry the guys in their life are to stupid to realize what they have, but they already know that.
So, I just did what I could. I hugged them tight and let them cry into my arms.