Please Don’t Fall In Love While I’m Gone
I left because I thought there was something more out in the world, but it turns out I had everything I could have ever wanted right in front of me.
By 
Becca Martin
It’s not right and it’s not fair for me to ask for you to wait for me because after all, I’m the one who left. But even the thought of you does something to me and I’m not a gambler but if I had to bet, I’d bet on you and me.
There’s no denying we have a connection. The way I feel around you is indescribable, you make me feel so comfortable that all the embarrassing things I do around you don’t even phase me because I know they’ll just make you laugh. And the way your arms feel around me makes me feel safe; you feel like home. No one else has ever made me feel the way you make me feel and I don’t miss you out of loneliness or miss your memories, I miss you. I want to come home to you.
I know it’s selfish of me to ask you to wait, to not fall in love with another soul or to keep the thought of me in the back of your mind, but I can’t help but ask.
I can’t bare the thought of you with someone new and all I’m hoping for is that when I come back that you will still feel the connection I remember so well between us.
I never meant to hurt you or to walk away, but I had an opportunity that I had to grab on to and that meant leaving you. I left because I thought there was something more out in the world, but it turns out I had everything I could have ever wanted right in front of me.
I’ll always feel guilty for leaving, but I hope you understand it was something I just needed to do.
I still think about you constantly. I run through all the memories we shared together, I show people your picture and I talk about your laugh.
In all those good times we shared I know that what we had was real, and I can’t bare the thought of losing that completely.
You’re an amazing person and you deserve the world, and the world is what I want to give you.
I don’t want you to wrap your arms around a different girl, I don’t want you to wake up next to someone else, I don’t want you walking down the street at night hand in hand with someone new. I want to be the one who is by your side, looking into your eyes and laughing with you.
I shouldn’t ask you to wait for me because I don’t know what your life plans are like now, but I want you to wait. I want to slow down or speed up with you. I don’t want to let another lonely night go by without being by your side.
