1. ‘Am I Ok’ by Rivver (feat. Milk & Bone)
“I just walked into the night, I’ll be home before the light hits my door.”
I’ve been trying for the past 5 weeks to pretend like I don’t care about you and how you’re doing. But I’ve hit a moment of weakness and I’m going to end up at your apartment one last time despite knowing it’ll end badly, and then disguise it as getting closure – that I’ve actually already gotten ten times over.
2. ‘How We Feel’ by Panama
“You know I don’t want to be the one, I guess its hard to say if you don’t want to be in love. Stay tonight, it won’t change how we feel.”
Okay, so it didn’t work out between us as a couple BUT maybe we could just f*** one last time? Just to be 100% sure?
3. ‘Touch’ by Shura
“You wanna touch me, but you’re too late. You wanna touch me, but there’s too much history. Staring to live the lies we tell ourselves.”
Alright, I’m going to put my pride aside and admit that I miss you. And I’m going to make every excuse to see you and then try to create some sort of tension each time to prove that there’s still something between us.
4. ‘Habits of My Heart’ (Sufjan Stevens Remix) by Jaymes Young
“I can’t say no – it’s ripping me apart. You get too close, you make it hard to let you go.”
F*** you and your late-night suggestive texts.
5. ‘Young In Love’ by Thelma Plum
“Cause we once were in love, and I once was all yours.”
I saw this disgustingly cute couple making out over dinner today and somehow it was that much less disgusting when that used to be us – don’t you agree?
6. ‘Us’ by Movement
“Did you believe in us? Did you believe in trust? Cause I’ve been thinking it over, and you’re aware that I want you.”
Maybe I had a bit more of a fault in it than I’d initially admitted, but I can’t remember why we broke up in the first place. Can you?
7. ‘Phantom’ by Ørka
“Don’t leave just yet. Dance with me, love, one last time slowly. Drown me again, just like you did.”
Now I’m getting sentimental. Perfect. See you again in a week when I reemerge from under my mountain of bedsheets and kleenex, when I’ll claim that I’ve gotten you out of my system for good.
8. ‘Caves’ by h a u x
“Take your last supplies, to leave this all behind.”
I’m going to call you innocently just to “check up on you” and tell you that this is probably the last time you will hear from me, only in hopes that you’ll come over and hug me and tell me you never want to be without me ever.
9. ‘Ivory’ by Movement
“Close your eyes, it’s like I never left you. More reason for what you had – holding on, I still chase you.”
Please tell me that my being nonchalantly flirty in attempt to make you miss me is working – because it’s definitely backfiring.
10. ‘Nothing More Crue’l by Charlie Lim
“Darling, I’ve been trembling from your love all this time. Even when the ashes have faded, it’ll be on my mind.”
I am now fully embracing the fact that I am completely and utterly at your mercy. Excuse me while I finish this entire tub of Ben & Jerry’s as I await your call.
11. ‘Feeble Lines’ by ROBB
“All at once, it all went down. Say you swear – we belong.”
Change your mind. Please change your mind.
12. ‘Certain Things’ by James Arthur
“Something about you is like an addiction – hit me with your best shot, honey.”
Fine, so you weren’t the best person when we were together. But you know what? I don’t think I care anymore, because I’ve reached that pathetic stage where it sucks being with you but it sucks even more being without you.
13. ‘Thunder Clatter’ by Wild Cub
“I hear it call in the centre of it all, you’re the love of my life.”
Perhaps, the bad did outweigh the good and that’s why we ended things. But right now I miss you too much to remember any of the bad, and I’ve been spending the past 48 hours replaying our entire story from when we first met. So look forward to getting my text in about the next 3 seconds.