I’m Not Picky, I Just Know What I Deserve

Lex Phil

When I fall in love, I completely shut down my mind and let my heart do all the thinking. I stop being logical. I ignore what the world has to say. When I fall in love, I’m not scared to go all in and give everything that I have.

But the true reason why I’m not in a relationship is because I feel like I haven’t found the right one yet. I haven’t met that one person who fits perfectly into my standards. I haven’t seen the qualities I’m looking for to anyone who shows interest in me.

I’m not in a rush to search for a lover. I’d rather be on my own than be with someone I have no special feelings with. I am not the kind of person who goes into a relationship for the sake of telling everyone that I’m in a relationship.

To me, love is more of an emotional connection rather than a badge of honor you pin proudly to your shirt.

I might appear as someone who’s pretty much selective in picking a person I want to settle down with, but that’s because I know exactly what I deserve.

I know what I want and what I need in a relationship. I have benchmarks and checklists I need to follow before I can commit with somebody.

If I’m going to be love sick for someone, then I have to be one hundred percent sure that they’re worth losing my sanity for. I have to be certain that it’s going to be a long-term partnership and not just another fleeting relationship.

I need someone who’s determined to stick with me until the end.

It’s true that I’m young and I should put myself out there and have fun and not worry about finding the right one at this point. But that’s just not me. I have no interest in wasting my time and playing games with anyone. I don’t like to be involving myself with someone who’s unworthy of my love and affection.

I know what I deserve because I care about myself and I respect myself. I don’t need to put myself in a relationship to know whether or not it’s going to work. I can already tell if something is wrong without necessarily having to experience it. It’s my responsibility to protect myself and provide myself all the good things in the world.

It’s never a selfish deed to declare your love for yourself once in a while.

Because the only person who can ultimately heal your broken heart is you. The only person you can rely on in the middle of the night is you. The only person who can save you at the end of the day is you.

It’s okay to consider yourself first, and put yourself first, before others. I don’t think it’s wrong to go after what I think is right for me. There is no reason to feel sorry for my standards.

I am alone because it’s my choice. I choose to wait. I choose not to settle for someone who I honestly know is not good for me. I choose to be on my own.

And I am genuinely happy to stay this way until I find the perfect one for me. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

Angelo Caerlang is the author of Sparks in Broken Lights.

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