I get confused. I lose sight of what I really want for my future. I have a hard time understanding why I’m stuck at where I am right now. Sometimes I wonder if You really know what I want. I wonder if things are going to be better for me.
Some days I just want to give up fighting, waiting, trying, all because I’m tired. I look at where everyone’s heading and I can’t help but feel like I’m behind. I work hard in everything that I do, and yet it seems like I’m not moving forward. I’m unable to see any improvement in my story.
I easily feel defeated. I am discouraged to go on, to try harder, to give everything a second chance. I let my moments of weaknesses overpower me.
But only one call of Your name is enough for me to calm down. One long silent prayer and immediately I am at peace with myself.
All it takes is one moment of switching off my thoughts to You to remind me why I am still here, why certain things happen to me, why I ended up at where I am right now.
You keep reminding me that I’m still young and there’s more to experience, there’s a lot more to learn, and there’s a whole new world out there for me to see. I know I am not yet ready to move on to bigger things in life. I know it’s not yet the right time for me to be in a place where I want to be.
And I’m glad You’re always beside me to help me train myself, condition myself, and prepare myself for what I truly want. You’re there to lead me in Your direction, when I lose track of where I’m going. You’re in front of me to protect me, and keep me away from temptations.
I can’t thank You enough for everything that you have done for me. I owe you my whole life. I don’t know how I’m going to repay you for all the blessings You’ve been showering me with. My words aren’t enough to glorify You, to deliver my love for You, to say how grateful I am to have You in my life, in every beating of my heart.
In all the times that I feel alone, You make a way for me to know that You’re always around to comfort me. In all the times that I feel like a failure, You’re always there to whisper to my ears that I’m a champion in Your eyes. And in all the times that my heart is breaking, You never fail to make me feel that someone loves me, someone sees my worth, someone appreciates how special I am.
God, Your love for me is something that I will always be thankful for. Your desire to lead me to the right path, to Your path, is what I will always follow. Your plans for me are what I will trust the most.
In Your forgiving, loving heart is where I feel truly safe. And I promise to always find my way back there, both on the days that I triumph, and when I am at a loss.
You are the only place I want to seek refuge. It is in Your heart that I will always feel at home.
I know I should be patient and trust Your timing. I should live in the present, be more accepting of my situation, and enjoy the process of my becoming. I’m going to let go of my worries and no longer question or doubt Your plans for me.
I’m going to continue to chase my dreams, work hard to achieve them, and never stop even when the road gets bumpy. I’m going to be easy on myself, and forgive myself if I can’t get things done the right way. I’m no longer going to strive for perfection, but instead grow and learn from my failures. I’m going to ask for Your guidance when I’m conflicted with my decisions.
And I’m going to draw my strength from You, especially during the times when I’m not strong enough to stand on my own.