This Is How I Want You

I just want to kiss you like you’ve never been kissed before. The kind of kiss that starts at the lips but quickly spreads to every single extremity you have. The kind of kiss that for a split second makes you forget your own name. The one that will replay in your head until the next time you get to kiss me again.

I want to be able to be the one to make you forget the pain you’ve felt before. I want your last broken heart to be your last broken heart. I want to be able to heal you and remind you how incredibly lovable you are. I want you to be able to look at me and see nothing but happiness. I want you to know that I’m not going anywhere.

I want us to fight. I want to fight so hard but have no fear that one fight will tank us. We’re going to argue. We’re going to disagree. I just want us to know that we’re going to get through it and be better for it. We’re going to be able to express when things don’t work. I want us to know that we’ve got this.

I want you to be comfortable enough with me to tell me every single scary thing in your past. Sure it’s going to change the way I look at you but it’s not going to change it the way you think it will. It’s going to make me look at you as brave. It’s going to make me look at you with pride. It’s going to make me see you for who you are. And it’s going to make me like you more.

I want to wake up to you next to me every morning instead of waking up alone. I’ve never wanted that before. I’ve never wanted someone to infiltrate my space and be around as much as I want you to be. I want you to be the reason why I don’t sleep diagonally anymore.

I want a front row seat when you finally see everything that I do. It’s everything I see when you’re opening up and letting me into those corners of your heart that not many others have ventured to before. The rest of the world only gets a glimpse of who you are but I’m the lucky one who gets to see every part. It’s a beauty that can’t be replicated.

I want to trust you fully. I want to trust you more than anyone I’ve ever trusted before. I’ve believed in a lot of people who have let me down. It’s hard to remember sometimes that you’re your own person and not any of the people before. You are someone who continues to prove every day that you’re trustworthy.

I want you to have your own life separate of me. Even though I want to be with you all the time, I want you to also keep your individuality. You deserve to have hobbies that don’t include me. You’re allowed to have time to do the things you love in order to recharge. We all have times that we need to be alone. I don’t want you to think that I’ll be offended if you need that. All I want is for you to do whatever self-care you need.

I want you to be happy. That’s it. That’s all it ever comes down to.

Whatever happiness looks like for you, I want that. I want that to be the main goal of your life. I want you to look at your life with content and satisfaction. While I can’t immunize you against pain, I want you to have more good days than bad.

I don’t know what’ll happen with us but I do know is that you’re the best thing I’ve felt in a while. So let’s not focus on the future and live in the present. We don’t have to define anything. We don’t owe any explanation. Let’s just be us.