I get attached quickly. I have trouble letting go of people who matter to me. I don’t give up on people easily. I consider myself a fighter. Someone with a soft heart. If you hurt me, I am going to try my hardest to see the situation from your point of view. I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt and accept your apology. I give out second chances. Even third and fourth chances. Sometimes I’m too nice. I give others too much credit.
For me to give up on you, something major must have happened. You must have hurt me deeper than anyone has before. You must have done something unforgivable in my eyes. Otherwise, I would try to make things work with you. I would be willing to put in the effort. I am not lazy. I am not ungrateful. I appreciate the people in my world. I don’t like to lose touch. I try to keep my loved ones around. I try to keep them close. Deciding someone needs to leave my life is rare for me. It does not happen often.
If I decide to walk away from you, don’t make it even harder on me by guilt tripping me and begging me to stay, because it is already difficult enough for me to go through with this. It is not easy for me to kiss our history goodbye. I will spend a lot of time seconding guess myself, wondering whether I am making a miscalculation, wondering whether I am being overdramatic, wondering whether there is anything left to salvage between us. Even after you’re gone, I will still worry about you. I will want the best for you. I will hope you will be okay without me.
I am not the type to give up easily, especially when it comes to people who mean everything to me, but there are times when I have to cut people out of my world for my own good. When I need to place myself first for a change. I cannot let myself get walked over. I cannot let someone continually treat me like a second choice and never make a move to change things.
I am willing to do a lot for the people I love, but I am not willing to let them take advantage of me. If someone brings me stress, pain, anxiety, and heartache, then I am going to consider my possibilities. I am going to remind myself that I can be selective about who I keep inside my world. I don’t owe anyone anything. I am free to walk away whenever I want. Nothing is holding me back from making the best decision for me.
The last thing I want to do is leave anyone I love behind, but sometimes I have no other choice. Sometimes I have to make the hard decision instead of the most comfortable one. Sometimes I have to leave people in my past to create a better future for myself.