I’m Complex, But That’s What Makes Me Who I Am

I am a complex woman who should not be dating in this day and age. Why? Let me explain. I am a woman who is 100% confident in who she is and what she wants, but I am also a woman who is 100% insecure.

How is that possible? Well, let me break it down for you all.

I am 100% confident that I deserve love and happiness. I am 100% confident that I deserve to be in a healthy relationship with a man who loves all my insecurities and flaws. I am 100% confident that I am beautiful despite my scars. I am 100% confident that I am no better and no worse than any other woman. I am 100% confident that I will not settle for anything less than a love I find worthy of my awesomeness.

But I am also 100% insecure because I know once you find true love in yourself, it’s going to be difficult to accept from someone else. I am 100% insecure because I know physically I am not irresistible. I am 100% insecure because I don’t want to be an option, I want to be someone’s choice. I am 100% insecure because I am aware that where I am in life is a place men assume I want to remain. I am 100% insecure because it took a while to be good enough for myself, so it’s going to be difficult to believe I am good enough for someone else.

Despite my complex attitude and outlook, I know I have a lot to offer. I know that my ability to know when I am in a toxic place in my life and being able to leave that place is an asset in dating—no, in life. I know I am worthy of a man who wants to work with me to achieve my goals instead of a man who rushes me or belittles them.

I am very aware of my flaws and challenging nature.

But I am also aware of my worth. I am aware of my potential and my determination. I know that when I find someone who accepts and complements me, I will know it. I won’t feel the need to impress him with sex or pretending to be like everyone else. I don’t like to play games. I don’t like to pretend to be calm and collected when I am upset and bothered so I won’t seem “crazy.” If you don’t like honesty and persistence, then don’t date me.

I am a complex woman. I am 100% me.

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