From the first moment I met him I knew it was going to end. We were always on different pages, different frequencies of life; our needs just didn’t align. I chose not to ask him questions I already knew the answers to and instead decided to starve the idea of forever and partake in the adventure of a lifetime. My biggest comfort was knowing that it would be worth it, that the memories would eventually replace the ache of missing him. Time flies when you are having a good time and time did not even feel real when I was with him. Though it felt like it wasn’t nearly enough, now I know that that’s how it was supposed to happen.
So this is me accepting the fact that our timing was right, that he was the person I needed to meet when I did. This is me being thankful for everything that took place between us. He opened my mind to a whole new world, treated me like I always should be treated, and gave me a glimpse of what my life could look like if I just take a chance—I don’t need to have everything planned out.
This is me understanding that just because things have to end doesn’t make them any less meaningful. This is the way it was supposed to happen, an ending like no other. This is me coming to terms with the way life works. We will both move on and our journeys might never meet again. Yet again, they might, and that’s what’s beautiful about it—we never truly know what will happen. For now I am just glad that our journeys did meet in this lifetime. At one point in time we were lucky enough to be in each other’s lives—we “beat the odds,” as they say.
This is me moving on. Moving on from the dream my life was while I was with him, and understanding that now it is up to me to take life into my own hands and make what I want out of it.
Humans need love to survive. We are always looking for the next big thing, hoping to find the happiness and security we so deeply crave. So when we bump into someone that embodies everything we have been looking for and more, we want to hold on to that person for dear life so that feeling doesn’t escape. However, some people are just meant to be in your life for short periods of time to show you what you are truly capable of achieving, to show you that you are capable of love, capable to follow your dreams, and capable of growth.
Some people are meant to be a part of your life. They are just not meant to stay in it for the long run, and that is okay.