I Love And Forgive You

Once in a while you will come across a person in your life who you fall in love with and will put your all into. It’s the time and the effort that you put into that someone that makes them all worth it. Their imperfections are what make them so beautiful. You find the good in everything negative about them. But it is when you love them more than yourself that will physically and mentally destroy you.

It’s the feeling of being a disappointment, and when they leave, you will be shattered and heartbroken.

The fact that someone can have such an impact on your life to be your motivation, and the reason you wake up everyday is such a beautiful thing in life. When you find your “soulmate” or “other half” it can be the most beautiful feeling in the world.

The small little gestures like helping them with laundry, cleaning, doing small tasks for them is what shows love. But it can become physically and mentally tiring when they don’t appreciate and see the small things you do for them.

They only see the big things and not the small things that all add up to the big picture and it will hurt like hell when they leave you and try to blame you for the things you did. Actions speak louder than words. 

“Every relationship will boring “boring” after awhile. Love isn’t a feeling, it is a commitment; to love every day physically and emotionally. It’s hard, it’s not always joke, good times, smiles and fun. People tend to quit when it stops being fun, and they go look for someone or something else. “Oh the spark is gone.” No, that’s not how it works. You want somebody to never give up on you, and love you conditionally? Do the same. Be the change. Love someone when you don’t want to. When they’re being hard to love.”– Anonymous

Now to the hard part… when your “forever” person leaves you, it will physically destroy you to the point where you don’t feel like there’s a purpose to life. It will be hard and you will beg for them to stay, but you will get through it.

That “other half” of you is ripped out of you and you will feel hopeless and physically shattered. But, I promise you as time goes on things will get better and that feeling will feel less painful.

Go out, do things, go conquer things those people never thought you could. Forget the things that someone used to say like “I love you forever” and the “I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you” because they never meant it and it was all just an illusion and love is literally blinding. 

Know your worth, and never settle for anything less. It is not you, it is them. Everyone gets shattered and heartbroken in life and it just has to be taken as a lesson to be used throughout the rest of your life. Things will get better. I can’t promise you the grass will be greener on the other side but it will be better than how you feel now. Now to my “soulmate” and my “other half” reading this I want you to know that I did love you and I forgive you too.