I love you and only you. Not what you have, nor what you can give to me. I love you and your flaws; I love them wholeheartedly. Yes I’m scarred for life but, I will definitely heal.
I knew it was that bad when all I wanted to do after waking up was for the moon to rise so I could go back to bed again. I didn’t want to see the daylight anymore because it served as a certain reminder of the happiest days that you had given me.
But, it’s different now.
As time passed by, it made me realize that distance from you helped me so much in seeing the good in this. It helped me learn how to stand by myself again, and it taught me how to live everyday independently. I’ve always wanted your happiness over mine because I was happy when you were happy. It hurts to know that it came to this point where your happiness might have not included me anymore.
It was hard to start over again. It’s hard to go through the coming days knowing that a part of me is already gone. It’s hard to believe that it will never be the same anymore since we both made it all so realistic. I guess it’s now time to change plans for our future. Or now, maybe I’ll call it my future.
It’s not okay, but it’s okay. It may be hard to understand that, but you’ll see. I want to thank you for one hell of a ride.
I’m just blessed to have fallen in love with my best friend because from the very beginning, I never had to pretend to be someone I’m not.
I want you to know that I never loved you less after our love story. My love is still there but it has already been transformed into something better for us.
There are still nights when I cry. Well sometimes even in daylight, I cry too. I was so used to sharing my days, thoughts, and dreams with you. Then, I started to think about the cause of my tears. I miss you. I want you back but not in that way anymore. I want you back in my life. I want to live in a world where I get to keep you for good, and not in the world where we lost the fight. In a world where we won’t need to put ourselves in this situation ever again.
Best of friends, and that’s it. Maybe that’s what’s destined for us after all. In His perfect time, I hope and pray that the universe will do its thing so everything can fall to its place again.