32. Watching porn and always watching the guy over the girl.. getting annoyed when they’d cut the guy out of the shot, and always wanting to see the guy finish. Eventually tried gay porn and was like OH.
33. When I was eleven at first I thought I was normal but looking back there are these little hints that I look back on with “How did I not see that!”.
The first was when I went swimming with the school, in the men’s changing room another person naked started pelvic thrusting joking about with his friend and I noticed and had to quickly hide because the blood started pumping, no idea what was going on I recall feeling confused and a tad ashamed.
The second was this cartoon book about puberty and it’s effects on the males body and I recall getting aroused by those men. Around 13 is when I discovered internet porn still thought normal even though looking at those images I stared more at the men.
Then at fourteen I was just staring at gay porn and I recall blurting out to myself “Wait! Am I gay?” Looking back on that memory I find it funny just because of my response.