28. Participating in class. I always have things I would like to add to the conversation but thinking about raising my hand, getting called on, everyone else is quiet waiting for you to say what you are going to say… because of this I rarely ever participate in class. I either have to start the semester off by doing it all the time when there are new people around me or I can’t do it for the rest of the year because I’m the ‘quiet’ girl and if I were to speak it would be weird and out of the ordinary. Also if I do summon the courage to actually raise my hand or speak up, I turn beat red because the spotlight is on me which then makes me very embarrassed causing me to try and hide my face and when I do that people can tell that I’m red because I’m drawing more attention to it by trying to hide it. It’s so exhausting
29. Ending conversations. Every time I enter into a conversation I’m 100% building myself up for the aftermath when the person has to go and I start blaming myself.