1. When I realized we had fun without having to go anywhere or do anything. It just all came so naturally.
2. When I had my first panic attack in front of him and I thought, thats it, he’s seen my crazy and I’ve blown it. I ran to my car and cried. He came to my car, told me to move to the passenger seat, drove around until I was okay to be in public and took me out for lunch and to a bookstore. Reading calms me.
I never knew what true loving consideration was before then. That feeling of real, unpretentious and unwavering love was just so much for me in that moment.
3. Just the sheer effort. Dropping everything if I had any issue arise. Helping me without being asked when I lost my job. Always being there. Calling to check on my son, building a friendship with him and eventually claiming him as his own/treating him as such. Always responding to messages/phone calls even if all he could say was, “Busy. You ok though?” Reliability is lit, fam. It wasn’t honeymoon phase BS either, this started as friends before dating and has continued on throughout our relationship. It is a beautiful part of who he is as a person and damn it makes me feel so cared for and loved and important. I’m going to marry this guy so hard.