22. I have semi-frequent suicidal ideation/intrusive thoughts over killing myself.
“He doesn’t know that I have semi-frequent suicidal ideation/intrusive thoughts over killing myself. It’s something that I’ve dealt with for a long time, but telling people about it freaks them out. They think I’m actually going to kill myself. I’m not, it’s just a thing my brain does because it’s a jerk.”
23. I’m probably going to leave soon.
“That I’m probably going to leave soon.
I’m tired of his chronic irresponsibility. He has a tendency to get very drunk and still drive, while giving me excuses why it’s okay like “he’s good, he’s done this before” or “it’s country roads.” He constantly oversleeps and misses parts of his shift, seems to be very distraught about “fucking up,” but won’t even take basic action like set an alarm or go to bed at a decent hour. His money management skills are poor, so I’m having to pay for his basic necessities, while he blows his on weed.
But the thing that bothers me even more than that is his kink. We discussed it on the first date and he knew I wasn’t into it, but he still brings it up at the worst possible times and the answer from me will always be “no.” It makes me feel equal parts inadequate and disrespected…”