This Is Why I Loved You

Every now and then, I have to remind myself why I loved you. I have to remind myself that you weren’t always a bad idea.

This Is When You’ll Miss Me

They will tell you that I’m doing well, and that they really think I’m going to be somebody. They will awkwardly apologize, forgetting for a moment that you and I were not always long lost friends, but lovers instead. You will say that you’re happy for me, and then excuse yourself, and then go home alone.

It Will Take More Time, But Someday I Will Not Love You

The soles of my bare feet will have never danced on your kitchen floor with my favorite song playing in the background. The tips of my fingers won’t remember how it felt to graze your cheek or run through your hair.

I Have To Thank You For Never Loving Me

You loved the way you could so easily convince me to stay with you, or give something up for you. Most of all, you loved the way that, no matter what you did, I would always find a way to excuse your behavior. But, you never loved me.

If You Ever Leave Me

If you ever leave me, I will remember the moment I fell in love with you. I will remember the way everything felt like slow motion and warp speed all at once.

Even Though You Love Him, He Is Not Magic

When you are eighteen, you will be with someone, and you will truly think that you love him. You will think he hung the moon and you will think he’s changed for you. But he didn’t, and you don’t.

He Doesn’t Know Why I Flinch But You Do

Three years after you, and I am with the most amazing man I have ever known. He knows me inside and out, but you’ll always know me just a little bit better, won’t you?

I’m Finally Ready To Admit That I Was Abused

He only held me down in the back bedroom of a house party, forcing me to explore his body, despite the tears in my eyes and the bruises on my wrists. He only hovered over me in the dark, removed his clothes, and menacingly whispered, “You’re going to lose it to me eventually, mark my words.” But, you’re right. He never even raped me.