Chronic indecisiveness. That is and probably forever will be my biggest flaw. I have tried so hard to fit into the cookie cutter timeline for how life should go. And from this, I have come to only one conclusion. Screw the timeline, the expectations and the pressure. I don’t need or want them. I don’t fit into the timeline because I am meant to have my own. My own unique path of timing and fate, which is solely mine.
Since coming to terms with this mindset, I have felt an immense weight lift from my shoulders. Trying to align your path with society’s expectations only hinders your timeline. Everything will happen the way it is supposed to and when it is supposed to. This I truly believe and have experienced.
Every person I’ve encountered, every opportunity received, every mistake made contributed to who I am today and I love that person. I am on a path of unconditional love for myself and that is exactly where I want to be.
I may not know what job I want to be doing for the next 20 years or have found the person I am meant to share this ride with, but I do know what kind of person I want to be and what I want to fill my life with.
I want to be the kind of person who finds wonder and gratitude in every sunrise and sunset. I want the smell of fresh mountain air to forever bring a smile to my face. I want to fill my life with people who lift me up and have a desire to leave the world a better place than they found it. I want experiences that allow me to grow and challenge my thoughts. I want to live and love fully without fear and hesitation.
I will not allow myself to be consumed by the stress of others’ expectations. I am solely focused on loving myself and my life. And let me tell you, the ride is a lot more beautiful from this perspective.
Going with the flow does not mean just letting things happen, but taking what you are given and using it to find exactly where you are meant to end up. This is the best advice I can give anyone like me filled with a million thoughts, ideas, and passions that cannot be paired down. Look at this as a blessing and not a curse. Because people like us are filled with all the good life is made of.
Chronic indecisiveness. Maybe that is my biggest advantage. Maybe it means I’m not willing to settle for any less than imperfect and wonderful.