You deserve to know that you deserve the love and passion that you’re spending oh so much time investing into this person, and you won’t be receiving it back.

they show me the inbetweens. 

Time feels like it is gradually moving by at a slow but steady pace and other times it feels like it’s moving rapid and quickly without allowing you time to catch up. 

We have a weird relationship, the three of us. I despise them when they’re around me. They turn my stomach into a knot, cause my breathing to quicken, and my heart to pound in my chest.

I don’t have the mind racing thoughts, the occasional panic attack, and I’m confident in myself. Lexapro allowed me to do the self-work I needed to be an even better version of myself. 

A strong woman is unapologetic, she has a no-bullshit attitude. 

I wear our memories on my sleeve like paintings on a wall. I soak in our laughter like sun-soaked curtains on a bright afternoon. I recall your voice in my head like a record player stuck on repeat.

That’s what I had fallen in love with. Your want to want me. When that was gone, I was left with nothing and I came down from that high you had me on. 

And now I see the world without you.

Ironically, many people who struggle emotionally are, at their core, people who actually just have a greater desire to enjoy life.