It doesn’t matter how many hours of sleep I get because I still wake up feeling tired. Mentally exhausted. No amount of coffee can cure it.
You’ve tried to be what people needed. You’ve allowed yourself to be others’ light and allowed yourself to fade into nothingness.
“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.”-Psalm 62:1-2
Yes, it can be hard to say no but you are strong and you can make yourself a priority from time to time.
You’re fed up with the way you’re living your life, but how can you change your life for the better if you keep thinking that you have a bad life?
You’re learning that it’s healthy to be vulnerable. You’re starting to embrace your vulnerability, your tears and all the things you used to associate with ‘weakness.’ You’re learning that it makes you human and that trying to be tough all the time is one big lie. Vulnerability is another form of strength.
I don’t need sleep or a nap. I need people. I need love. I need understanding.
Today I’m just going to be real and I hope you will forgive me for failing.
Sometimes I’m emailing about work at midnight. That’s how habits start. They creep in when my guard is down, when I’m not connected to anything I love.
You are tired of hating yourself for showing too much emotion. You are tired of blaming yourself for caring too much, for allowing yourself to be more attached than you’re supposed to be.